Above, my eight year old daughter´s efflorescences. I´ve told the doctor but he said to me to stop drinking coffee and stop smoke...(Do that help my daughters efflorences....?) Also our dog has several "bumps" on his body. Can it be some chemicals (bensen) in the water giving deaseases such as Cancer...or something else?
At present (2006-09-12) I have got infections in the lymphs and the smell is like the water we have in the house, it smells like rutten meat. Also I´ve got efflorecenses, small dots -looks like a mosquito has been there but it hasn´t. Maybe I´ll put pictures here later.

Remember that I wrote this, dear readers. Try to understand why we want to get out of here as I already have cell variations on my uterus regarding to one specialist doctor (not the ordinary ones). How can people treat us like this? I´ll never understand this.

Several times I reported to the house host that we are suspecting that the water is infected by some bacterias. I haven´t dared to drink it in many months. Note! I drink water everywhere else, so the accusement that I´ve got about "having fobies against water" is NOT true....Me, my daughters, my dog, the cat has got efflorescences and several diarrhoeas. They don´t care at all and we are treated worse than murderers. Probably they are trying to change our living - and that´s for sure that I decide my living myself, over my dead body that someone tells me how to walk, sleep, eat and so on. I have limits and these limits are exceeded a long time ago. Almost nobody have visited me and told me what they think right into my face - and until then I wont change anymore. Dot and end. I am tired of crambling around as I haven´t done anything but trying to change me and my living, when and if people don´t "buy" that I never mind about their opinions.

During 2006, in our last apartment on the country

I have got several complaints from my neighbours, it seems like they want to teach me how to be their "dog" and not how to behave normally in the area. Whatever we do, we have wrong and get complaints.

One family are claiming that we would have thrown garbage in front of their door instead of throwing it where it should be..., that our cat is invading her garden area (we live on the country..) They have also screamed out loud so everyone could hear it that "some people must teach to close the garbage door so that we can avoid animals invading it". That was 5 minutes after my 8-year old daughter had thrown garbage and she forgot to close the garbage door. They are very sensitive themself but the pics below tells the truth....

They have also called our owner of these apartments and given complaints on us.

Another neighbour are claiming that our cat is coming to her door and that he is hungry all the time and she came to our house and told me (like I was a baby) how to look after my cat and what I should do or not do. I moved out to the country so that my cat would be able to be outside. It seems that Swedes doesn´t have anything at all to do but giving complaints on others.

Someone is throwing plastic bags with dog evacuation in it, in front of my outdoor steps to give me and my family bad rumour. That we wouldn´t clean up after our dog.


Another day, my daughter had a friend here, then two men sat outside on the opposite, starred directly at her room window for several hours. We´ve also cars driving within the yard and outside our window 30-40 times, sometimes more, every day even though it is forbidden. But as we are "sick and stupid" in this family the owner doesn´t care about us, "the scums".

But of course, rumours has also told me that it may be some close relative of mine spreading bad things about us too, so...what shall we think?

How can you be a good neighbour/person with this treatment?

After the move into town

Just as I suspected something more bad would happend when moving into my "old area" where all this probably started up, but i did it for my kids sake. It´s not funny living on the country not having contact with anyone.

Here has been veeery long waiting for things that others get within ordinary time, such as help from the house host with repairing things, disturbing moments with slamming doors, hits in the walls several times a day periodically, harassing reports to the house host just if we "walk" in a wrong way. Whatever we do (as it seems) someone calls to the house host with complaints. One (only one time)

I excused myself as I had argued with my teenager and agreed about that the volume may had been to loud, but I excused myself and took my responsibility, I talked with the neighbour and asked him which time he thought it would be silent here, he answered me with 23:00, and that we have followed except for some few times when I have showered until 23:10-23:15

I want to remind all here that I have a teenager and that it use to be normal that they have a higher volume around themselves, they are playing music, they are obstinate and so on. But in Sweden i think you have to cramble on the floor to be accepted - that´s why I want to go out of here. It´s not a life to have people around complaining in all things you do - it sound like we would be bastards whatever we do. It seems like you can´t do 1 mistake in here, then letters are coming about that you may loose your apartment.

SICKNESS
I´ve visited the doctors here as I suffer from "freezings" in my body, the temp shows up 37.5-38.0 many times now and then, but all my blood tests are completely normal regarding to their opinions. I only want to ask how many people are suffering from "freezings" without having any infection in the body. But I guess that if I get really sick - they have more options to "catch me". That´s another reason why I want to go out of here, as I think they wont help me with antibioticum so that I get rid of this infection I probably have in my body somewhere. People in here don´t like me and why should I stay in a country where I never get a chance?

BILLS AND ACCUSEMENTS ABOUT NOT WANTING TO WORK!

I will write more here later about the bills I get from different companies....welcome back then and feel free to contact any Swede after reading, to ask them if they pay that much that I do for ex. electricity and others...I have heard rumours about that its out that "I dont want to work" and that companies are billing me more than the real sum, so that I will "understand that I have to work", as we have less more than what´s recommended from the government each month as it is today. (So, why do we have so little money left after paying the bills then?....) Well, I searched hundreds of jobs during 2002-2003, I was overactive, I have been studying a lot to reach university points, I have looked for jobs abroad, I have worked hard to try - but someone have spread rumours about me, bad rumours and of course no employer wants a "psychic sick person". When I look for jobs sometimes I dont even get an answer back. THATS the truth!

And, ask yourself why they are trying to stop me via rumours going abroad??? Of course as they are afraid of the truth - they are afraid that I will get right and that I will show the world that I have been treated worse than a dog here the last 10 years. Again, ask yourself why they are doing all this? I think you´ll find the answer yourself. IF all what they are claiming would be true - HOW would I dare to write all this and why would I fight like this in this level against all this accusements if I am not right? How would I see my kids in the eyes if I were a liar? No, never. Believe this or not, but this is th truth and the whole truth.

PROMOTION

Just want to announce here and now to different companies that i really want to promote myself in all of your companies but why I don´t do it is because I can´t afford it at the moment. That s the reason and nothing else, I have been accused for using "all free services". Yeah, why do I do it? What other chance do I have so far? Of course if I could afford it I would announce everywhere. Think about to be a singer trying to establish oneslef on the market but to be stopped, harassed and having to work double and sometimes even triple times more than others to reach the same result. Is it nice? Is it normal? Is it fair? I call all this first class bullying. I am just trying to be treated like any other artist, not more, not less.

/Sivan

PROBABLE NEW LIES ON THE WAY
Today I am angry, I am sick again for the third time after each other but i have been taking pain tablets for fever to have the possibility to manage this sentences below. I have nothing to loose.
The latest is that some people are acting and probably are spreading rumors that I can´t make decisions, and take decisions and of course that I don´t want to work.... I have heard underlying that "it would be good to at least try something". Yeah...of course I would.... I did, once a time and I did it like nobody else. I worked my ass of me 12-14 hours of 24 and I got nice marks and like that. I worked overtime and I did things I didn´t need to do. Who said thanks to me? I got complaints in that I was "too hard to deal with", I was "stubborn" a s w.

It´s a very good timing now to start accusing me for being unactive, after years of harassments. Oh Lord I wonder who is psychic sick here, me...or them. of course I would give 100% and maybe even more if I got a chance or job abroad. Here, noone believe me so it´s no idea to put more time and effort than what´s needed due to rules and so on.

However, shortly I can declare that I also have lost a lot in life, so these old rumors about that I cant loose and are in need of practice in loosing things is just a tergiversation to get the opportunity of harassments against me.

1982, I lost my grandmother, which was the most important in life to me.
1983, I lost my father - I have no sisters or brothers so this I had to handle myself 17 years old.
1985 I lost my favourite aunt, it took me hard
1987, my first child was born, with a disorder coming from her daddys relatives
1992, I separated and lost much money from a selling of our house - still I am paying....
1996, I was left by a new man I met, pregnant.
1996, finished my studies to reach 3 years competence within the college - didn´t get a real job
2000, moved to our capitals area to get a job, worked about 5 months and someone had called my boss and told them that I was "nothing to believe in". They tried 3 times but the boss kept me as he liked me until it was time for renewal of my contract. Then I didn´t get any more job, but a good mark...had to move home again as I didn´t get a new job. The company lost a lot of other people too due to economic problems.
2002, my daughter was raped and I had to move to another city as they wanted to investigate this. She did not have any problems at all before this, but her disorder.
2004, moved home again as she came into more troubles down there, I contacted a lawyer and took her home, promised myself not to ask for more help within the social services. Recently she finished her basic studies....so, I wonder, can´t I make descisions?

The years after this until now the harassments has increased, day by day, with new accusements, new "sicknesses" and new bad things. And nothing is true. This is absurd.

How impudent can humans be? Haven´t I lost things in life???? It´s enough! I want to get out of Sweden, that´s all. I don´t like being here and I want to be by myself. and meet new contacts and people who has a believe in me. Dot and end. Until then I will go on this way.

2007-04-08
Called my relatives this weekend, we are celebrating easter. Nobody answers the phone and no one cares me and my kids. That is the truth. I give you here and now proof of how I am living with two kids in 2 rooms and a kitchen of 58 quadrate meters. 58 (m2). I sleep in the tv-room as I have been blacklisted in the working register and ca not get a job.

Rumors has told that I have used my childrens money to buy a lot of things, that I have got a bad buying behaviour because I suffer from some psychic sicknesses and gives myself gifts to feel better.....I am not. it is also a lie. When I buy things I buy firstly to my kids. I have not bought much to myself last years, all my furniture has gone "broken" of some reason ....during moves and of some other strange reasons.....hmm. I do not think it is possible that so many furniture just can "go broken" by itself. Look below at the pictures.

Also, I do not get the help I need from the "care central". I have documented problems with my neck, since 1998, I suffer from several teeths just broken and just the roots left, with infections. I can not eat normally so some days I have to let it be. I have fever and cold freezings. They did not give me antibioticum at the care central , until now recently when I visisted the dentist. That cost me 640:- swedish crones, plus antibioticum. I can not laugh as one of my teeth in the middle front is broken and I have a hard time to eat some days. Pain in my body as they are trying to declare is in the head....aka psychics.

Broken mirror during a move,
a gift from my mothers
x co-habitees mother.

left to me from my grandmother when she died -broken

Broken buro I bought for 400 swedish crones and painted-
now destroyed during a move...

Painting from my dead father, destroyed by someone
during a move. A Memory. Something wet have been thrown to it
It was not like this before., injured by damp

My nice board broken during a move

Broken lamp - I do not know why,
just saw int after our move with a firm here in town

This buro I got from my mothers x-cohabitee
After a brake in to my house, someone had destroyed the lock
and I had to repair above with "glue", you see the lines if you watch it close, above the lock.
I suppose they looked for my own produced music CD:s as I locked in, and information for continuing this harassments. I miss papers too, and lyrics to the music....

The same board is also destroyed in its color - it was not like this before the moving. Probably it has been injured by damp

Glueing on the board for glas and porcelain. It was left to me from my dead fathers
old aunt. I lost my father when 17 so I got it instead of him as he was dead.

injured by damp, and we have NOT had any damp inside the house....
The burglars did it?

Below some more pictures of how we had to live in our old apartment, dust and bad air made me feel very bad. I cough up every day and I cleaned up a lot of dust on the floors and furnitures. Also some pictures of how I am treated myself as a person within the care centrals. They do not listen to me, they claim underlying that I am psychic sick and have bad social life. Yeah, why? Because I am bullyied. See below.

Blue marks coming now and then without any reason

Swollen leg on the left, I do not know why. The doctor did not care at all, told me to stop with coffee and smoking.

Efflorecenses and blue marks

Infection in my eyes, they are all read and I feel like it is sand in them.. I suffer from freezings in my body now and then, the sedimentation is 20, and should be around 5. Sometimes I go numb in some areas around the cheak, neck and I see strange with a following headache. I can also get migrain with auras but thats different from this. I did never had this before the accident with my neck 1998 and certainly I have not got any swollen parts in my body otherwise than when I have been pregnant....

I have been at a specialist telling me I suffer from the same as mother did, lost her periods too early. So some hormon problems here too which does not make it easier for me.

I am physically sick and need help to get out of here, they will kill me this way with trying to imagine and convince me that I am healthy but sick in my head from imaginations. I AM NOT, I know my body.

Last but not least, I have lost 13 kg, so I shoudl feel much better.....but I am not.

For help me and my 2 kids, 10 and 13 from here, mail me at

zivanto (at) yahoo (com) (If you do not get any answer someone is probably stopping themail to reach me.

If you do not get any answers, it depends on that some people are checking my surfing and mail bevaiour, I really do not know why. We think they monitor what I am doing....then call me +46702100136. If you do not get any answer there at all even if you try several times, something is wrong and then think that what I am telling is true.

Do we deserve this living and treatment?

2007-04-08
Another thing that makes it hard for me to work with people and around people is also "a psychologic sickness....I suppose they are thinking....

I have not been able to repair my teeths in many years as I have not afforded it and also I am a bit afraid from dentists, something wrong also has occured, as they just fall apart and only the roots are left.... :-P One visit to dentist costs about 600-700 crones and I can not afford it. But of course I am suffering from a "destructive victims behaviour".....yeah.

I am like a dog today, I dare not laugh, I suffer from pain, I dare not seek any job as I am blacklisted and also because of the teeths. I have got bad infections and have been in a very bad condition.

Almost no real teeths left in my above jaw. It is a brigde, black and ugly, probably soon falling apart, together with just bad bad teeths.

2007-08-18